The week seems to be passing so quickly that I realized that I have been lagging far behind my school work. This semester I really need a miracle from God to pull up my GPA!!! I need to claim from God all the As in my subjects this semester in order to pull up the GPA! I’m going to ask big for it but I know that I also need to put in more effort in my revision.

I don’t really have enough time to do my tutorials due to having tuition after school. I must learn to have good time management and prioritize the things to do. Because of planning to put in more effort in my school works, I feel that I have started to neglect doing quiet time, which is definitely not good. Although, I wanted to study, I realized that the school works seem tough and I can’t manage to understand or get it into my brain. I seem to have a difficult start to studying. Help!! I have been praying that God would help me find a better study way so that I can concentrate.

I set up a goal to go school early starting from next week, will be taking a lift from my sister and studying in the NIE canteen until lesson starts. Hope that it will be a good spot for studying. Beside I have a long break on wed after dropping me Engineering Drawing module, should make full use of it to do tutorial.

I would like to thanks God this week for making my adding of Lab 2C successful. If not, I will have to take it only in the 2nd semester next week and will affect my attachment. When I was so desperate about this Add/Drop thing, I totally surrender everything to God and from the bottom of my heart, I said to him,” Lord, I knew that you will make everything smooth for me and will take always the trouble from me. I commit all the things in your hand!” and thank that God has indeed help me. He assured me with Hebrew 13: 6

“God has said,

Having NTU cell today, the very first after our school semester have started. I was indeed glad to see Diana at the cell as it was always a joy having someone from another tribe in the cell group.

Actually I was feeling rather tired after having a straight 3 hrs lecture. But when Eric started sharing, I was so surprised that what he shared was exactly the things that I wanted to share too! He was telling us that when we ask God for something big, we really need to proclaim it and not just asking silently in our heart. By proclaiming it confidently the thing you are asking God for whether to your friends or your spiritual family, it shows the amount of faith you have in God. The faith that you truly believed that God will give it to you and you want to claim it in victory! I strongly agree with it.

I witness it myself how God really work his way through me when I proclaim it during the cell that I want to grow deep in my character. And I realized that the more people I proclaim it to, the stronger the lord is working on me. So all of us should ask God for something big, proclaim it aloud and be ready to claim it as God can see the faith we have.

Something fresh to start off in the NTU cell is the prayer walk in the school. The main purpose is to bless everyone even the lecturer and the buildings in our school! Haha!! Bless the building??? Of cos need to… we have to pray that every lab equipments will be functioning well so that our lab work will be carry out smoothly mah!!… hee (*_*)

Anyway, before the start of the prayer walk, we did some reflection! I questioned God how am I going to share and bless the people as no words were given to me. I am also not sure whether I will be sharing the right thing with my friends. And God affirm me with Mark 9:38-41 [Whoever is not against us is for us]. This is what God has advised me with:

“Its ok to share even no word was given to you. I will bless you with the courage. Anything you share in my name is something good and because I love you, so I know that there will not be anything bad coming out from you.”

In a nutshell, there should be no fear when we share with others!

I actually felt quite lazy to blog, but felt that even at the start of this week God has indeed develop me into someone stronger. Therefore, I really thank God and would like to blog it down and praise him.

As the year begins, I told myself to work in a spiritual way – meaning living in the spirit of the God and be sensitive to the Holy Spirit. “God, help me to go deep in my character and be filled with the fruits of the spirit!” This is something big that I’m going to seek the god for, and I ask God to develop me by his power and not by my human effort as I knew that if I didn’t seek him, and work a way out by my own strength, it is impossible for me.

Sometimes, when you want God to work powerfully within you, you need to surrender – Enthrone God’s right over your life! [Been preached by Pastor Melvyn during the service today] I question God this morning on the way to my Post encounter lesson, “God, how am I going to listen to your words and allow you to develop me?” He refers me to:

- 1 Corinthians 1: 7-9
“Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for
Our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. He will keep you strong to the end, so
That you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus
Christ. God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ
Our Lord is faithful.”


Sometimes, you may be so confused by what is the message that the lord is telling you. Seek him and question him, he will give you more and made it clearer to you. I was so amazed by even when I’m blogging now, I ask God how am I going to express the message you are telling me and Guess what? God refers me at this instant to read 2 Corinthians 12: 1-10 [Paul’s Vision and His Thorn] and it clears the picture in my mind.

In 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
“But he said to me,” My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about the weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong”


During the worshiped today, the word “weak” also flash in my mind and in 2 Corinthians 12, weakness was also strongly emphasized. I think God is telling me that we should delight in our weaknesses and do not conceal or be afraid of it. For when you are weak, the lord is strong and when only you boast about your weaknesses, Christ power can then rest upon you. Aman!! Praise God and thanks God! I think this is the thing I’m lacking and should work on it. I’m always finding excuses to hide my weaknesses and I believed God is asking me to surrender it so that he can lay his hand upon me!

This few days have been raining so heavily. Having to go and forth from school in the rain (especially for someone like me who doesn’t like to carry an umbrella with me) was definitely dreadful. But thanks to the rain, that I sense the message that God wanted to tell me.

That day, after my tuition, as usual it was still raining heavily. I purposely teach a bit slower and even leave my tuition house a bit later in the hope that the rain would subside. Yes, indeed it became lighter. Jeslyn’s mum offer me an umbrella so that I will not be caught in the rain but I rejected it as I felt that the rain has stop and I can just dashed to the bus stop. But I feel that God is purposely playing a trick on me. Once I took the life to the lobby of her flat, the rain seem to get heavy again. Thinking it was quite troublesome and embarrassing to go back to borrow an umbrella from her, I decided to run my way to the bus stop. I board the bus and upon reaching Causeway point, I realized the rain has stopped and so I decided to go shopping for a while before buying dinner back home. But guess what, when I was ready to go back, the rain started heavily again. I questioned God, “Why ah? Every time I want to leave for a place, you seem to purposely create the rain heavier.

When I reached my house bus stop, it was still raining heavily. I have to go to the market to buy my dinner and the journey there was quite a distance and without shelter at all. I called my sis at home to deliver an umbrella to me but she wanted to watch the superstar and ask me to wait for another 15min after the show end. I stand alone at the bus stop feeling cold and uneasy with the floor so wet and dirty. I envy those who have an umbrella with them and can walk slowly in the rain. After, 15min, my sis appeared with an umbrella and I slowly make my way to the bus stop. At that moment, I suddenly felt so strongly that the umbrella I am carrying is like the God who is always beside me. I looked around me and everyone is also carrying different color umbrella sheltering them. It suddenly prompt to me that God has always been with us, protecting us like the umbrella sheltering us from the rain, but did we make full use of it? Or we only think about him only at our most critical moment? And worst, sometimes even at our most critical moment, did we seek him first or we just simply forget about him?

I felt that God is asking me whether in my most desperate and critical moment, I have seek him or simply I have just forgotten about him. My sis carrying an umbrella to me act as an illustration that is it only when someone prompt you or remind you that you need to pray and ask God for help, then you will seek him. I felt that this has been what I’m doing when I face problems in the registration of my sch modules. Why do I choose to run on my own effort when someone already offers me the umbrella?

That night, God refer me to Galatians 3:2-5

“Did you receive the spirit by observing the law, or by believing what you heard? Are you so foolish? After beginning with the spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effect? Have you suffered so much for nothing – if it really was for nothing? Does God give you his spirit and work miracles among you because you observe the law, or because you believe what you heard?”

I ask Alvin the next day to explain to me. He asks me to seek the God for an answer but I told him that God didn’t reply me. Then he said sometimes you have to be sensitive. God don’t necessary speaks to you in a clear distinct voice but sometimes is how he make you think and prompt your mind that he’s speaking to you. Then I realized that there may be circumstances when God already hint me but I just choose to ignore him.

The first week of my 2nd semester of school hasn’t been easy for me. I faced lots of disappointment and heart-ache when I came to know that I have to drop two of my modules and can only take it in my third year. This means that I will have extra workload in the third year. This started for the school new system that anyone whose result is not good in the previous semester and have received an AW will have no choice but to take only 7 modules for one semester.

Yap, I did try to appeal to slot in one more module. I even sit down in the office face to face with the professor who is overall in charge of the academic matter. Talk to him about my situation and hoping that he can help me. He did try to appeal for me but the school still insists on the school system. I felt so sad and I think my mood level had dropped to 0. But I knew that I have to be optimistic and this might be the path that God has lay for me, not allowing me to take so many modules and in the end getting poor result again. I’m still not the worst, my good friend, Mika even have to drop 3 modules so think we really need to encourage each other this semester.

My tuition has started. Although I’m feeling rather low morale, but I knew that I can’t let this affect my tuition. Have a great time talking to my tuition girl, Jeslyn’s mother about Christ that day after my tuition. She asked me whether I baptize already and is it possible for me to baptize without my parent’s consent as I am already above 21. I explained to her my situation and told her that it would be better to obey them and if I did baptize without their consent, I think I will even face more trouble at home and might even not be able to go to church service. Isn’t that worst? She share that she also face this problem last time and indeed that I really have to pray for that. Things would eventually turn out better. It’s always a joy to be able to share with someone as I cannot do that at home.