Friday, January 12, 2007 . 9:11 PM
This few days have been raining so heavily. Having to go and forth from school in the rain (especially for someone like me who doesn’t like to carry an umbrella with me) was definitely dreadful. But thanks to the rain, that I sense the message that God wanted to tell me.
That day, after my tuition, as usual it was still raining heavily. I purposely teach a bit slower and even leave my tuition house a bit later in the hope that the rain would subside. Yes, indeed it became lighter. Jeslyn’s mum offer me an umbrella so that I will not be caught in the rain but I rejected it as I felt that the rain has stop and I can just dashed to the bus stop. But I feel that God is purposely playing a trick on me. Once I took the life to the lobby of her flat, the rain seem to get heavy again. Thinking it was quite troublesome and embarrassing to go back to borrow an umbrella from her, I decided to run my way to the bus stop. I board the bus and upon reaching Causeway point, I realized the rain has stopped and so I decided to go shopping for a while before buying dinner back home. But guess what, when I was ready to go back, the rain started heavily again. I questioned God, “Why ah? Every time I want to leave for a place, you seem to purposely create the rain heavier.
When I reached my house bus stop, it was still raining heavily. I have to go to the market to buy my dinner and the journey there was quite a distance and without shelter at all. I called my sis at home to deliver an umbrella to me but she wanted to watch the superstar and ask me to wait for another 15min after the show end. I stand alone at the bus stop feeling cold and uneasy with the floor so wet and dirty. I envy those who have an umbrella with them and can walk slowly in the rain. After, 15min, my sis appeared with an umbrella and I slowly make my way to the bus stop. At that moment, I suddenly felt so strongly that the umbrella I am carrying is like the God who is always beside me. I looked around me and everyone is also carrying different color umbrella sheltering them. It suddenly prompt to me that God has always been with us, protecting us like the umbrella sheltering us from the rain, but did we make full use of it? Or we only think about him only at our most critical moment? And worst, sometimes even at our most critical moment, did we seek him first or we just simply forget about him?
I felt that God is asking me whether in my most desperate and critical moment, I have seek him or simply I have just forgotten about him. My sis carrying an umbrella to me act as an illustration that is it only when someone prompt you or remind you that you need to pray and ask God for help, then you will seek him. I felt that this has been what I’m doing when I face problems in the registration of my sch modules. Why do I choose to run on my own effort when someone already offers me the umbrella?
That night, God refer me to Galatians 3:2-5
“Did you receive the spirit by observing the law, or by believing what you heard? Are you so foolish? After beginning with the spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effect? Have you suffered so much for nothing – if it really was for nothing? Does God give you his spirit and work miracles among you because you observe the law, or because you believe what you heard?”
That day, after my tuition, as usual it was still raining heavily. I purposely teach a bit slower and even leave my tuition house a bit later in the hope that the rain would subside. Yes, indeed it became lighter. Jeslyn’s mum offer me an umbrella so that I will not be caught in the rain but I rejected it as I felt that the rain has stop and I can just dashed to the bus stop. But I feel that God is purposely playing a trick on me. Once I took the life to the lobby of her flat, the rain seem to get heavy again. Thinking it was quite troublesome and embarrassing to go back to borrow an umbrella from her, I decided to run my way to the bus stop. I board the bus and upon reaching Causeway point, I realized the rain has stopped and so I decided to go shopping for a while before buying dinner back home. But guess what, when I was ready to go back, the rain started heavily again. I questioned God, “Why ah? Every time I want to leave for a place, you seem to purposely create the rain heavier.
When I reached my house bus stop, it was still raining heavily. I have to go to the market to buy my dinner and the journey there was quite a distance and without shelter at all. I called my sis at home to deliver an umbrella to me but she wanted to watch the superstar and ask me to wait for another 15min after the show end. I stand alone at the bus stop feeling cold and uneasy with the floor so wet and dirty. I envy those who have an umbrella with them and can walk slowly in the rain. After, 15min, my sis appeared with an umbrella and I slowly make my way to the bus stop. At that moment, I suddenly felt so strongly that the umbrella I am carrying is like the God who is always beside me. I looked around me and everyone is also carrying different color umbrella sheltering them. It suddenly prompt to me that God has always been with us, protecting us like the umbrella sheltering us from the rain, but did we make full use of it? Or we only think about him only at our most critical moment? And worst, sometimes even at our most critical moment, did we seek him first or we just simply forget about him?
I felt that God is asking me whether in my most desperate and critical moment, I have seek him or simply I have just forgotten about him. My sis carrying an umbrella to me act as an illustration that is it only when someone prompt you or remind you that you need to pray and ask God for help, then you will seek him. I felt that this has been what I’m doing when I face problems in the registration of my sch modules. Why do I choose to run on my own effort when someone already offers me the umbrella?
That night, God refer me to Galatians 3:2-5
“Did you receive the spirit by observing the law, or by believing what you heard? Are you so foolish? After beginning with the spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effect? Have you suffered so much for nothing – if it really was for nothing? Does God give you his spirit and work miracles among you because you observe the law, or because you believe what you heard?”
I ask Alvin the next day to explain to me. He asks me to seek the God for an answer but I told him that God didn’t reply me. Then he said sometimes you have to be sensitive. God don’t necessary speaks to you in a clear distinct voice but sometimes is how he make you think and prompt your mind that he’s speaking to you. Then I realized that there may be circumstances when God already hint me but I just choose to ignore him.